I Wonder

I was reading the blog of the pioneer woman and her introspection set me off too. Iam 39 - when i was younger just completing my teens.. here's what i thought i would be doing. I would pass the civil services exam, i would be a officer with the power and the machinery to make a difference, definitely watching plays, listening to music, loving the movies , in the city, buying books tht i loved reading, walking to coffee shops having endless debates about the politics of the nation, goss about celebrities, have the money to invest and be a part of decision making for the nation.

and now here iam ... 39 merrily single, no plans of getting married either.... in a job that is satisfying (though iam bored to death some days) with friends i love, family i adore ... though they do get on my nerves often. families do that u know... get on your nerves ..lol ... all it does is prove that my nerves exist!! colleagues i tolerate etc etc.. u know the grind!! there are some i do like.. but hey they are so few !! :(

i never visualised being here in this spot... but it happened and it wasnt even all planned ... it just changed and with each change came something - a little good and a lot "whatever".

I Wonder ... if given a chance to relive my life.. what are those things i would change ? would the result be totally different .. who knows ... destiny they say guides your every move and iam so much a believer of destiny!!!

Hmmmm

Wondering why i called my blog addicted ... cos thats how iam... addicted to people, to my family, to work, to read, to play.... blah blah blah.. and this is the second time iam beginning to blog and iam hoping this time it wont be as addictive as the previous time.... when i couldnt stop thinking aloud...i must have been having interesting thoughts .. tht ppl thought worth reading cos i had the hits... when it got to point that was addiction, gave up and now am back again... told ya .. cant keep away.. but its been a long long while and i hv changed too.... so to remind me not to get addicted is y my title is Addicted!!!!!!!!!



Iam bored today, my friends told me too tht i sounded bored ... wondering y iam bored!maybe sometimes life sucks!! u r meant to be bored .... feeling lethargic... whatever ... but no its not my harmones talking.... its just meeeeeee





goin home.. ciao again soon, maybe not... since iam trying not to be addicted remember!! :)