I Wonder

I was reading the blog of the pioneer woman and her introspection set me off too. Iam 39 - when i was younger just completing my teens.. here's what i thought i would be doing. I would pass the civil services exam, i would be a officer with the power and the machinery to make a difference, definitely watching plays, listening to music, loving the movies , in the city, buying books tht i loved reading, walking to coffee shops having endless debates about the politics of the nation, goss about celebrities, have the money to invest and be a part of decision making for the nation.

and now here iam ... 39 merrily single, no plans of getting married either.... in a job that is satisfying (though iam bored to death some days) with friends i love, family i adore ... though they do get on my nerves often. families do that u know... get on your nerves ..lol ... all it does is prove that my nerves exist!! colleagues i tolerate etc etc.. u know the grind!! there are some i do like.. but hey they are so few !! :(

i never visualised being here in this spot... but it happened and it wasnt even all planned ... it just changed and with each change came something - a little good and a lot "whatever".

I Wonder ... if given a chance to relive my life.. what are those things i would change ? would the result be totally different .. who knows ... destiny they say guides your every move and iam so much a believer of destiny!!!